Mal's Memories
This is so hard I don’t even know where to begin. The first thing I want to say is that I feel blessed that I got the honor and privilege of being Stephanie’s friend. She has changed my life in everyway. I want to thank Nick for making this site it’s comforting for me too, to see how many people loved her like we did.
From the first moment I saw Steph I couldn’t get over her makeup lol. If u knew Steph u know how much she loved doing her makeup. She reminded me of a little porcelain doll. Kelly and I would argue about who met her first lol but Steph and I knew we had met first and we would joke with Kelly about it all the time lol I miss that. I was at our friend Kenzies house with Mike, melts lol, and Jermaine, Steph’s crush. Well Jermaine got up and left the room for a minute and me being bad with names asked what is that kid’s name? Steph answers with oh that’s Jermain! He eats my face! At that point I was hysterical she always knew what to say to make people laugh. That was the first time I ever spoke with presh*
When her and Kelly, wait scratch that, CHI!!!!!, became mudder and chi, that’s when I really got to know Stephanie and what a perfect match her and my sister were. I would come home everyday from school to Steph and Kelly hanging out in "chitown." Kelly’s room was always a bomb but when Steph came over Kelly’s room would get a complete makeover and be spotless by the time she was done. I can always remember her saying look at what Cind did to me and laugh. She always seemed to be smiling even if she was cleaning up after her chi. The times we had in chitown are the best memories I have of Steph. We would watch Van Wilder and Euro trip every night and just laugh and laugh.
My favorite time with Steph happened on Halloween. Kelly, excuse. Chi, would always talk about the vacation her and Steph went on with her brothers. I knew John from high school but only by association, and I had never met Nick. Well that night Steph invited me over and I got to spend time with both of her brothers, Jen and Kacie. I remember a specific event that night that I won’t ever forget. When I arrived at their house that night Steph wasn’t exactly on nice terms with her brothers, the usual bickering, Steph and I went downstairs and john soon followed along with Jen and Nick who had been upstairs carving pumpkins. We were all talking over each other and just basically being loud and someone was talking to Steph and Nick tried getting her attention, he was looking at her with anticipation trying to tell her something and he kept saying S! S! Steph looked over at him with a smile. I never knew that she was called S by any one. I’m so thankful for that night because it was nice to see her happy and bubbly with her brothers again. This was the first and last time I ever got to spend time with Steph and her idols, her brothers.
When summer hit that year and I was at shear ego that’s when Steph and I became a lot closer. I remember talking to the "Sharon’s" at school about taking a leave so we could be in the same class when I came back to school. I regret everyday listening to them because they were wrong and I could’ve been with her from the start which is what Steph and I used to talk about before she started. Gary one of her classmates told me something after she was gone that made me feel better. He said that the week before I was coming Steph wouldn’t stop talking about me because she was excited that we could be at the same school. We would talk online all the time about the teachers she had and if I knew them or any of the students she had become friends with. It made me want to go back to school that much more because I would be able to hang out with her everyday. But no matter how much trash we used to talk about "Shear EEEEg" we both knew that we loved what we were doing. We used to talk about owning a salon with her girlfriend, Jamie, and that Steph would be the stylist I would control the business and jamie would get our customers, believe me if u know jamie u know shed be outside asking people on the streets like we did at St. John Fishers lol. I remember sitting outside on the picnic tables of school during breaks and lunches talking about everything and anything. That was one of the best parts of Steph, she always knew how to listen and then make u laugh even if u were sad. She would talk about the "fam" and "colbs" most of the time. O and lets not forget her pudding packs at school that was her "fave."
The thing that I regret the most is not being able to achieve these goals with her by my side, celebrating her 21, finding our first real jobs together, going to each others weddings, babysitting each others kids. We used to talk about these things like they would be here tomorrow. It’s impossible not to get sad thinking about her even today but when I start to get sad all I have to do is look at her pictures. Especially the one with the shirt stuck over her head and she’s laughing lol. I find myself crying and laughing at her at the same time. It’s sad to know that she’ll never know how much she meant to me. I still believe there is a reason that we never got to say goodbye, its not goodbye its see your precious face later mud...
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Updated 4/29/06 6:21 PM